I can hardly believe so much time has lapsed since my last post. Things have been busy in my home…doctor appointments, tests and lab work, baby-sitting, Spring cleaning. And then there was Lent.
I decided to forget about giving up the desserts and candies, a guise to start my old diet; but, to spend more time focusing on my relationship with God. New prayers, more of the old favorites, and religious reading was my way of focusing this Lent. I found myself spending more time with God and less on other things in my life…less computer time, less phone time.
I wondered why I wasn’t able to share my time with God in my blog. I have no answer, except that perhaps I was selfish and possessive of our time together…God and me. It was time I just wanted to share with Him, our time. A time I found my spirit to be still. So forgive me for the long silence. During that time you, my readers, were still in my thoughts and certainly in my prayers.
I would like to share with you my thoughts about a time we were baby-sitting for three of our young grandchildren for several days early on in Lent. James, the youngest at just three years old, is his Daddy’s boy. “I want my Daddy” was repeated many times over that first night and it took lots of cuddling and hugs before he fell asleep. The next morning we were greeted with “I want my Daddy.” Thank goodness for my husband’s chocolate chip pancakes, a great distraction, which are the very best! Then the day was filled with games and playing outside under the blue sky in the sunshine. All five of us had a delightful time!
As I was cooking dinner, the children were amusing themselves with coloring books. Out of the blue, James called out to me, “E-Mom, I love you!” What a gift from this little one which took me completely by surprise! “I love you, too, James. I love you very much.”
A few days later at weekday Mass, Father Jack said that our prayers should not only be those of petition and thanksgiving, but of adoration. He said that we should tell God we love Him. James’ “E-Mom, I love you” popped into my mind. I didn’t need to hear that for me to love James or enjoy caring for him; but, it brought such utter delight! It was a surprise; unexpected; and warmed my very heart…that little boy with his big smile!
So, that’s what it might be like for God, I got to thinking. He certainly doesn’t need my love to exist and doesn’t need it to love me. He loves me more than I realize. He loves all of us unconditionally…always has, always will. But for Him to hear it from us, to hear “I love you, God” must bring a smile to His face and joy to His heart. Picturing my God smiling, because of me, makes me want to shout that over and over again….I love you, God! I love you, God! I love you, God! And I find myself smiling as well!
May God bless you and all those you love.
Dear God, I do love You. Help me remember that You, too, enjoy hearing those words. Amen